Tuesday, October 18/16
It's funny how life has a way of reminding you of both the good and bad times you've experienced....
So last Thursday I left work early in order to go and play some golf and on the way up highway 7 to Pakenham I started to change lanes in order to pass a white delivery van but didn't really think much of it until I was directly along side it and than just had to smile at the business name.
Ulrich's on Main. A combination little bistro and food emporium that I was introduced to last year when visiting C on one of my many weekends up in the valley. A quaint little place and one of many that seem to populate Pembroke and make exploring new places worthwhile.
The second smile came Saturday when I was sitting on the couch watching the Blue Jay's in game two of the ALCS and my phone buzzed saying I had a Facebook message. I opened up my phone to see who it was from and ended up on the screen showing all conversations, don't get too excited as there were only 3 of them as I'm not a huge FB messenger kind of guy.
The message was from a friend I hadn't talked to in quite some time and she was asking how I was doing and what was new with me. We chatted for a bit and got all caught up with one another for now and as I signed off I noticed an older conversation that I had forgotten to delete from last year.
I had sent congratulations to C's son has he had secured early admission to university and I was pretty sure both of his parents were over the moon with happiness.
I opened the conversation to see how I go about deleting it and noticed his current status had been updated and as I read it I felt this huge smile on my face as it seems he his following in his parents footsteps in his choice of university and career. His road will be hard and full of obstacles but if there is one thing I've come to realize it is that that young man has an inner drive that will be more than ample to see him through to the end. Given how successful his mother has been I can only imagine how far he'll push that bar himself. Being a legacy is never easy but I'm confident his only limitations will be those he accepts and I don't see many of those. Go forth and conquer A for the world is your playground.
It's sort of funny how both those reminders somehow had C at the center and yet both made me smile without any hesitation or regret. I'm am truly a better man for my time with her and it has taken me a little while to understand the benefits from our relationship far outweigh the hurt I had to endure.
I once wrote that love means accepting the hurt as well as the joy and if you can understand that simple truth that everything else will fall into place over time.
My time is now and I'm continuing my journey through life. It has been interesting to say the least and I wonder at times what my future holds but in the end the only way to know is to get out there and live that life the best you can........
My name is Marcus and these are my journeys. Care to come along for the ride, it might not be all fun and games but I don't think you'll be too bored :-)
Oh snap! Almost forgot to give you today's musical suggestion. Lets go with Work Shoes by USS
Tuesday, October 18, 2016
Tuesday, October 11, 2016
Only in Canada
Tuesday, October 11/16
So yesterday I went out and played what might turn out to be my final round of golf this year and had one of those moments that can only be described as truly Canadian.
I met my buddy B at Glen Mar for our 2:02 tee time and off we went.
We both hit nice drives on the opening par 3 hole, I still hate the fact that GM switched to the old back nine as the opening front nine as I think it strange to start off with a par 3 but it is what it is, and we ended up with a pair of pars to begin the round.
The second is a really long par 5 that plays about 545 yards slightly uphill to a partially hidden green. There is a hill on the right side and it hides a pond that is about 225 yards out from the tee box. Somehow I boomed my drive just slightly past the pond in the middle of the fairway and hit a super 3 wood that left me about 138 yards out but on the right side along the tree line and behind the trees guarding the right approach to the green.
As I was getting ready to hit my 8 iron I looked up to see a golfer coming down the tree line looking for what had to be a very wayward tee shot off of the 15th box. Now this and of itself isn't anything special until it dawned on me he was wearing shorts in 8 degree Celsius weather. Again, nothing special as I've been known to do the same and almost did yesterday lol
No, what makes this so Canadian was the fact that he was smiling as he walked past me, apologized for disrupting my swing, and was wearing a big red and white toque!.
Yes, you read that right, he was in shorts and golf polo with a toque.
How so very Canadian and worth the high five we exchanged as he passed me by.
B was standing about 5 yards away and all he could do was smile and mutter "Only in Canada"
My name is Marcus and that is how we roll in Canada....................
So yesterday I went out and played what might turn out to be my final round of golf this year and had one of those moments that can only be described as truly Canadian.
I met my buddy B at Glen Mar for our 2:02 tee time and off we went.
We both hit nice drives on the opening par 3 hole, I still hate the fact that GM switched to the old back nine as the opening front nine as I think it strange to start off with a par 3 but it is what it is, and we ended up with a pair of pars to begin the round.
The second is a really long par 5 that plays about 545 yards slightly uphill to a partially hidden green. There is a hill on the right side and it hides a pond that is about 225 yards out from the tee box. Somehow I boomed my drive just slightly past the pond in the middle of the fairway and hit a super 3 wood that left me about 138 yards out but on the right side along the tree line and behind the trees guarding the right approach to the green.
As I was getting ready to hit my 8 iron I looked up to see a golfer coming down the tree line looking for what had to be a very wayward tee shot off of the 15th box. Now this and of itself isn't anything special until it dawned on me he was wearing shorts in 8 degree Celsius weather. Again, nothing special as I've been known to do the same and almost did yesterday lol
No, what makes this so Canadian was the fact that he was smiling as he walked past me, apologized for disrupting my swing, and was wearing a big red and white toque!.
Yes, you read that right, he was in shorts and golf polo with a toque.
How so very Canadian and worth the high five we exchanged as he passed me by.
B was standing about 5 yards away and all he could do was smile and mutter "Only in Canada"
My name is Marcus and that is how we roll in Canada....................
Monday, October 10, 2016
Happy Thanksgiving Canada
Monday, October 10/16
Like everything else we do when compared to the United States, we do Thanksgiving sooner than the Americans :)
We celebrate Thanksgiving on the second Monday of each October so that means that today is turkey day in Canada as well as sugar pie and ham day.
Last year I cooked my first turkey dinner with a lot of help from C and I spent some time this weekend looking back on last years Thanksgiving celebrations with a lot of smiles and love in my heart. This time last year my son and I got spend Thanksgiving with C's family on Saturday and then we came home to cook our own dinner for Thanksgiving Monday that included my daughter, her fiancé, and C.
Yesterday I broke bread at my ex's house and it was a lot less strange than I thought it would be.
I was a little surprised when she asked if my son and I would like to come over for family dinner but agreed as it would let me see her family and they always treated me well.
We played some cards, Joker Rummy, and I proved to be very bad at it but still had fun. My ex's partners father was there and seemed to take a shine to me and we talked a lot about golf and the various clubs we've played. He said he'd heard I played some up in the valley and asked which were my favourite so I told him Pembroke, Petawawa, and Roanoke in that order but I hadn't played up there this past season as my reason for being there was no longer true.
Dinner was perfect and the pies afterwards were the icing on the cake.
My former mother-in-law promised to make a sugar pie for Christmas and would make my son bring it to me as he is with his mom on Christmas eve and morning this year.
When it was time to leave I thanked my ex and her partner for having me over and she smiled and said "Once family, always family" and that is so true, especially in this day and age of hyper connections and stress to make ends meet.
So as I start to get ready to head out and play my final round of golf for this season I'd like to wish each of my Canadian followers a very Happy Thanksgiving and hope you are/were able to spend it with loved ones, family, and friends.
My name is Marcus and though the days are turning cold the heart grows stronger..........
Like everything else we do when compared to the United States, we do Thanksgiving sooner than the Americans :)
We celebrate Thanksgiving on the second Monday of each October so that means that today is turkey day in Canada as well as sugar pie and ham day.
Last year I cooked my first turkey dinner with a lot of help from C and I spent some time this weekend looking back on last years Thanksgiving celebrations with a lot of smiles and love in my heart. This time last year my son and I got spend Thanksgiving with C's family on Saturday and then we came home to cook our own dinner for Thanksgiving Monday that included my daughter, her fiancé, and C.
Yesterday I broke bread at my ex's house and it was a lot less strange than I thought it would be.
I was a little surprised when she asked if my son and I would like to come over for family dinner but agreed as it would let me see her family and they always treated me well.
We played some cards, Joker Rummy, and I proved to be very bad at it but still had fun. My ex's partners father was there and seemed to take a shine to me and we talked a lot about golf and the various clubs we've played. He said he'd heard I played some up in the valley and asked which were my favourite so I told him Pembroke, Petawawa, and Roanoke in that order but I hadn't played up there this past season as my reason for being there was no longer true.
Dinner was perfect and the pies afterwards were the icing on the cake.
My former mother-in-law promised to make a sugar pie for Christmas and would make my son bring it to me as he is with his mom on Christmas eve and morning this year.
When it was time to leave I thanked my ex and her partner for having me over and she smiled and said "Once family, always family" and that is so true, especially in this day and age of hyper connections and stress to make ends meet.
So as I start to get ready to head out and play my final round of golf for this season I'd like to wish each of my Canadian followers a very Happy Thanksgiving and hope you are/were able to spend it with loved ones, family, and friends.
My name is Marcus and though the days are turning cold the heart grows stronger..........
Thursday, October 6, 2016
Tears.......unbidden and quite confusing
Thursday, October 06/16
So there is something going on with me and I don't have a fucking clue what it is and I'm starting to wonder if I'm cracking up.
For the last two weeks I've literally been crying at the drop of a feather. Don't believe me than consider these recent episodes.....
I see a family going for a walk in the park and I feel like crying.
I think of my unborn grandson and I cry. OK, this one sort of makes sense
I look at the picture taken of my son and me at the end of this past seasons soccer tournament and I cry
Moki snuggles in my lap while I'm watching TV and looks up at me and I feel like crying
I'm driving back from playing golf and suddenly feel my cheeks moist from tears that I had no clue I was shedding. This one has to have happened at least 3 times over the last month
Now it looks like I'm crying in my sleep as I woke up this morning to find my pillow soaked and blood shot eyes staring back at me in the mirror.
I don't think it's health related, leastways physically, as I had my 6 month check up last week with my doctor and I can't remember seeing her so happy when we went over my recent blood work and blood pressure readings. Of course I didn't mention the free flowing waterworks as I was hoping it would work itself out but that doesn't seem to be the case and I'm guessing a call to book a fresh appointment is on order.
Has this ever happened to you and what did you do to cope with it?
I'm worried it's going to happen when my son is around and get him worrying about me or even worse, telling his sister or mom. Don't want the pregnant daughter worrying about me and don't have any explanation in case the ex asks me what is going on.
Being on good terms with one's ex is a double edged sword. On one hand we co-parent pretty good and on the other hand it also means we care about the other and never want to see them hurt.
Believe or not just writing this entry has be almost balling my eyes out............
My name is Marcus and something is wrong and I can't figure it out and that scares me more than anything right now.
So there is something going on with me and I don't have a fucking clue what it is and I'm starting to wonder if I'm cracking up.
For the last two weeks I've literally been crying at the drop of a feather. Don't believe me than consider these recent episodes.....
I see a family going for a walk in the park and I feel like crying.
I think of my unborn grandson and I cry. OK, this one sort of makes sense
I look at the picture taken of my son and me at the end of this past seasons soccer tournament and I cry
Moki snuggles in my lap while I'm watching TV and looks up at me and I feel like crying
I'm driving back from playing golf and suddenly feel my cheeks moist from tears that I had no clue I was shedding. This one has to have happened at least 3 times over the last month
Now it looks like I'm crying in my sleep as I woke up this morning to find my pillow soaked and blood shot eyes staring back at me in the mirror.
I don't think it's health related, leastways physically, as I had my 6 month check up last week with my doctor and I can't remember seeing her so happy when we went over my recent blood work and blood pressure readings. Of course I didn't mention the free flowing waterworks as I was hoping it would work itself out but that doesn't seem to be the case and I'm guessing a call to book a fresh appointment is on order.
Has this ever happened to you and what did you do to cope with it?
I'm worried it's going to happen when my son is around and get him worrying about me or even worse, telling his sister or mom. Don't want the pregnant daughter worrying about me and don't have any explanation in case the ex asks me what is going on.
Being on good terms with one's ex is a double edged sword. On one hand we co-parent pretty good and on the other hand it also means we care about the other and never want to see them hurt.
Believe or not just writing this entry has be almost balling my eyes out............
My name is Marcus and something is wrong and I can't figure it out and that scares me more than anything right now.
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