A slap to the face that was more than needed

Sunday, August 20/17

So I was chatting with someone towards the tail end of the week who follows the blog and is also on the same dating I'm on and she was asking me why men are so difficult to understand, they act like pigs and then wonder why they can't get any face to face time. I sort of laughed and asked what made her think I had the answer to that question and she replied that I seem like a nice guy who is open in his approach to things and not a pig just looking for another notch on his bed post.

That one was easy as my bed doesn't have any bedposts lol

I told her that if I knew the answer to that question didn't she think I'd have been on TV spreading the knowledge and banking some serious coin. I think both sexes are pretty damn confusing most of the time and think that is what makes dating so hard in this day and age.

I told her I hoped I wasn't like most guys and that it came across that way as well in the blog.

Her next response sort of shook me a bit.

"I haven't read the blog in quite some time, it was full of far too many entries revolving around C and the lost opportunity. You need to put that one to rest, free your mind of that woman, and get yourself back out there searching for the one"

I went back yesterday and read some of the entries and she was right. I've been wallowing in some serious self pity and hadn't even been aware of it.

The funny thing is that I really am over that period of my life and though I hate this saying it really does highlight where I am at right now.........single and ready to mingle

But mingle with one woman at a time as I'm far too old to be playing games with multiple partners, I deserve more and so does she, I wasn't even a player when I was younger and full of mental energy lol

So while that slap to the face sort of hurt it also made me realize that I've strayed from my intended path with the blog lately and need to get it back on course.

Oddly enough, someone on a site asked me about the blog as we were chatting as there is a blurb about once having a blog and needing to get back to it, so I gave her the link and haven't heard a peep out of her since. Scared her off maybe, but as Mae West once said "If you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best"

I'm no Mae West, I still bat for the visiting team, but that is a damn good saying to live by.

I'd say I'm back but I never really left, might have taken a short hiatus there but still running this money losing operation with no intent on shutting her down.

My name is Marcus and I'm searching for love, hopefully in all the right places, and maybe meeting my one, not my perfect one but rather the one who is really imperfectly perfect for me.

Today's musical suggestion is by The Pursuit of Happiness and "I'm An Adult Now". Heard this on Live 88.5 while driving to play my last round of the weekend this afternoon.