Wednesday, July 1/2015
Today's next song suggestion is "Come And Get It" by John Newman.
I've been listening to his album Tribute a lot since coming across one of the songs on an episode of Suits. I find several of the songs reverberate with me and when that happens I tend to put them on a loop and play them over and over.
So it wasn't my intent to post a second entry today but as usual life had other plans for me so here I am writing another entry.
This one comes courtesy of my son so all credit goes to him, whether earned or not. He does tend to provide me with a lot of fodder for the blog, sometimes good and full of laughs and other times more thought provoking and the source of more than a few tears on my part.
As I mentioned in my Happy Canada Day post earlier today my son is meeting up with friends to enjoy the day at the KRC so when he asked me to drive him over to his girlfriends dads place it was expected and off we went.
Now her dad lives in the same neighbourhood as my ex so we have to drive right past her place which should feel kind of odd but doesn't in the least. I guess it would be weird if there was any romantic feelings for her but those are long gone and have been replaced with a nice sense of friendship. If I had to admit to my feelings towards her I'd say they border on those I might have for a sibling if I had one. The best thing we have going is the ability to continue to like one another, placing our kids welfare above all else, and being able to talk without letting any emotions get in the way.
So as we drove down the street I saw a man walking a dog and for some reason it made me think of Miles the purebred chocolate Labrador he shares with his mom. I asked him if his mom or T, her boyfriend, took him for walks and he said they do but he, my son, doesn't as Miles has a mind of his own and is quite a handful at 85 pounds to control. I laughed and said I bet and was glad he got out for walks as Miles is the male version of Moki, a huge baby who has to have attention like it was air or water. As a family we've been really fortunate in the pets we've had as all have been affectionate and awesome to the extreme.
As he drove past the soccer pitch I spent more hours on last year than I thought possible a commercial came on the radio for Hot 89.9 about their latest contest and I sort of laughed out loud which caused my son to ask what was so funny. Now some background is probably in order here so things make sense context wise. Hot 89.9's new promotion and contest is to get your picture taken with the Hot 89.9 Beaver and post it with the hash tag #SpotTheHotBeaver. Here in Canada it is accepted that beaver is also slang for a certain part of a woman's anatomy...think about it for a moment and it'll come to you...no pun intended lol
That of itself didn't make me laugh but rather the give and take that the Morning Hot Tub had yesterday with Mauler and Rush doing everything they could to make Jenni laugh as they used as many sexual innuendos as possible. They finally got her when Rush mentioned it might rain today which when added to some humidity would make for a rather hot and wet beaver whereupon Jenni said not if it used an umbrella and was covered up. Took her a moment to think about her choice of words before all three were laughing as well as most listeners I'd venture to say.
So knowing there was no way around his question, not that I would look for one as my position with my children as always been I'll honestly answer any and all questions they ask as long as they understands the question and accept the consequences of any answers, I glanced at him and asked he if understood what a sexual innuendo was and he said sort of and looked at me with renewed interest knowing inside that something good was developing.
I took a deep breath and asked him what he knew about beavers. He looked at me with that look that said he thought I was losing it and said it was an animal and there were many in the national capital region where we lived. Hearing the last part of his answer had me bursting with laughter and him saying "What?" in a rather pissed off tone.
I took a deep breath and explained that beaver was a sexual innuendo for a vagina and that the entire commercial was one long joke. He smiled and said he understood but didn't get why I laughed when it came on and I explained about yesterday's morning show and I could see some confusion once again so I decided to take it easy on him by recounting it. As I did I could sense the wheels turning and a slight blush developing on his face.
There was a few moments where nothing was said before he deadpanned to me "I like beaver" and I laughed and replied "You and me both buddy"
As I made a turn he said one thing about the promo was silly and I asked what and he said aren't all beavers hairy, wet, and hot when it rains? Now I knew what he meant but was extremely proud of him for running with the whole innuendo thing and not asking the question straight out as that would have made the conversation a little more awkward lol
I gave some thought to how much farther this conversation might go and realized it didn't have much time left as we were close to our destination. I told him that not all were hairy as some were trimmed, some different colours, and some were actually quite bald. He then shocked me by asking if that was where the saying "carpets matching the drapes" comes from. I said I didn't know if that was its origination but it has been around for as long as I can remember.
He then shocked me further by asking how I liked it and I almost choked and considered declining to answer him but thought in for a penny in for a pound and told him I'm not a fan of the bald beaver. He laughed and said he'd thought he had me at that one making me realize he is trying to find the question I won't answer as well as pushing his own boundaries.
As we pulled up to his girlfriends dad's house he leaned over to give me a hug and thanked me for the ride and the talk. I told him to enjoy himself, stay with his friends, be aware of his surroundings, and if he couldn't get a hold of his mom later to text me and I'd come and get him. He asked what I was doing today and I told him maybe some golf and Netflix tonight. He wished me a good round and then hesitated for a brief moment before saying he could hang out with me if I wanted. I asked where that had come from as I knew his plans had been building all week and he replied he didn't like me being alone all the time and remembered the plans I had set earlier this year.
I felt a tear and told him I was fine and wanted him to enjoy himself with his friends and not worry about me. He asked if I was sure and I assured him I was. He told me he was sorry things didn't work out like I had hoped and I said life has a way of keeping one on their feet so don't spend so much time worrying about me and spend more time experiencing life for yourself.
He smiled at me and got out of the car and headed up the driveway, turning once to way at me.
It sucks to be spending this day alone once again but I was this close to having someone special to share it with, encouragement that it might still happen for me.
So once more my incredibly attentive son had me smiling, laughing, and almost crying. I consider it a good day when some of those emotions happen thanks to him and his sister.
The funny thing is that I know he only has these kinds of conversations with me as does his sister with my ex. I'm thankful each of them feels comfortable enough to talk to one of us about anything and they actually do it on a daily basis.
I'm there for my kids no matter what the topic, the outcome, or the emotional price it may cost me. I don't think there is anything better I can accomplish in my life than that simple act for them.
i/ˌdeɪʒɑː ˈvuː/; French pronunciation: [de.ʒa.vy]) from French, literally "already seen", is the phenomenon of having the strong sensation that an event or experience currently being experienced, has already been experienced in the past, whether it has actually happened or not