Sunday, February 07/16
While I was meeting with my banker on Thursday to review my mortgage options I got a call on my cell from an unknown number but didn't see it until I was in my car as I'd put my phone on silent mode for the meeting.
My first thought was that it was C as I'd removed all her contact information but was soon set right when I listened to the message and found it from the furnace company coming to do the maintenance later that day.
I'm hoping I've finally reached rock bottom where it comes to the whole thinking about C and what might have been with us and will now start the slow climb upwards to being myself once again.
No, the email response from her yesterday was rock bottom so now I will start working on getting my feet back under me and making things happen.
C made me a better person but it wasn't enough to make her happy so unless I'm keen to wallow my life away I better get my shit together and see what life has to offer as the next 6-9 months are going to be pretty damn interesting and it would be nice to have someone to talk to about them.
I see some gym time in my future today as it lets me keep working on reducing my pear shape and gives me some time to think on my next steps.......to being more accepting of what I want in my life and what I might offer someone else in her life.
Marcus
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