Today's musical recommendation -
"Secrets" by One Republic
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Sometimes when you set out with one
objective in mind something happens that makes you stop in mid-stride and take
stock of yourself and your hopes and dreams.
This has sort of happened to me and in the
process of thinking about and writing these little blurbs to the world I've
paused more than once to ask myself what are my own hopes.......
It doesn't help that I do my usual thing
when I'm in bachelor mode, that is what I call it when my son is with his mom
as it lets me fool myself into thinking I'm proactively looking for that
special person, and that is to partake of movies, books, and music. Now don't
get me wrong as all of these are great activities and for the most part I enjoy
all of them but never all at the same time lol. The problem is that sometimes I
get into my own head and let the scenes and words force me to evaluate my own
life and there are times this can be a bad thing as I know that despite being
busy with work, moving to a new home, and being involved with my kids I really
am not happy with my life.
Not so unhappy that I'm miserable or allow
those around me to see it but unhappy inside as I've come to realize just how
lonely being single can be. Maybe it doesn't help that my birthday is coming up
and that is one of those days it totally sucks to be alone and maybe it comes
back to the relationships that have been possible but some inner fear of
getting hurt has me turning away from the romantic aspect and instead focusing
on the platonic end of things......and we all know that isn't why we are on this
site or at least isn't a good reason to be on here.....
What got me thinking were two movies in
particular - Friends with Benefits and Crazy, Stupid, Love.
Now I've done a thing about FWB's and am
starting to think I might have to revisit the whole concept at some point but
that is a theme for another post. What got me about this movie was the
connection that develops between two characters without them really realizing
it. Now CSL was an excellent movie and the theme of soul mates really hit home
hard as the romantic in me really believes in this concept but the logical side
of me argues against it as how can soul mates break things off or are there
multiple soul mates for each of us at different periods of our lives??
So the combination of my blogging, is this
considered a blog?, and some recent movies have left me feeling down and out,
needing to shake things up, and maybe expose myself, not that way lol, to being
in love once again.
Now my question is given I don't have any
game when it comes to flirting how do I go about letting the world know my
status is now available??
What do you do when life throws you an
emotional curve ball?
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